what's the word....

Hi weirdos,

I realize that my once steady stream of posts has more recently become a lifeless trickle, but deal with it. I no longer have internet whatsoever outside of the capital, Nouakchott, so that makes blogging a challenge. Nevertheless, here I am! I'm going to try to post a few things, which may be incomplete, but maybe worthwhile for all that. Also, I have a few pictures (which are conspicuously absent at the present) to post, but maybe not until December.

--Also, I'm glad no one writes me ever, or sends me letters, so thanks for that.

OK Kiddos, stay tuned.

PS Alice and Tony, I'm calling you soon to check on the progress you've make towards coming here, and I'm using check minuses and gold stars. Which will you be?

PSS Oh, wait, I found some pictures of various things such as myself and food. I didn't take any of them, Fred did, but that doesn't matter. More to come....

A plate of tajiin (a snack we eat before meals on special occasions)

Cous-cous, which we eat every night, though normally the meat is in microscopic bits

Me and my friend Rachel in (perhaps) St. Louis? last Christmas.

Meditations

I've become a stone mason. Or rather, not really, unless a certain gross incompetance can be overlooked.

Everyone and their goat, it seems, is engaged in a project of building something now, a wall a house, it is the season for it. And since the building material is so abundant they literally just dig it up out of the street.

Finding opportunities to work with people is hard, for a lot of reasons, and so whenever I see one of my pals hacking up chunks of rock from a pit in the ground, I scurry on over there and ingratiate myself like the well meaning, grandmotherly-like busy-body that I apparently am.

Everyone always gets an enourmous kick out of seeing me carry rocks a few feet (usually all I'm allowed to do. 'Just one' Yusef says, and looks at me seriously, 'Kool-ton, just take one at a time') It's impossible to convince them without sounding haughty that the work is not actually that hard, and that I've been doing similar things since the age of like, eight. (on the other hand, now that I've lost basically all the flesh from my body, I do get winded disgustingly fast, but there's no way I'm letting them know it).

Once in a while, like yesterday, I get to help a little more- hitting a few things with hammers, holding an old rusty clamp, that sort of thing. Mostly I just sit around for a while and try to watch the work intently, and hope that that at least says something to them.

Why do I do this? One answer is that I absolutely can't tolerate letting people feel like they know me from the first glance, from all the usual sign-posts - age, race, sex, sexuality, education, etc. - even when (maybe especially when they happen to be right). I go out of my way to prove people wrong, who may or may not be in fact, wrong. I don't truly want to descend into a dark well to fetch someone's lost well-bucket, so why do I do it (over and over again)? I actually do get a little squeamish watching a screaming goat get its throat sawed off with Mohamed-Elamine's dull pocket knife as we talk about the heat, so why I am I determined not to show it?

Granted, I'm hardly the first person in history to act tougher than he is, for no apparently good reason other than to save ego, but it's also something more than that, something about the larger truth (the truth about Westerners, or about the central equality of all people, the truth about the power of good intentions). How the larger truth can't be enunciated merely through it's smaller constituent truths, but only through the artful addition of illusion. It's about something being more than the sum of its parts. My parts.

*******

Let's see, what else? The days just go and go and go, and I find myself in the middle of a long process of changing from one thing to another, where neither extreme is visible any longer.

Every night I eat pearl-millet cous-cous (this is not the stuff you buy at the store) with the family of Mohamed-Ali, my neighbors, who also happen to be some of the sweetest and most truly kind people I know here. The only son, Yusef, just about my age, is my best friend in El Qidiya, and being with him puts me at peace. He lives at home with his sisters, he is a stone mason (every third person will tell you this is their job), and he has taken the Bac (exam to go to University) three times, but failed. He showed me his notebooks from when he was a student, crammed full of Arabic and science illustrations. He wants to become President, but I tell him I think he should become a scientist, because there are always people who don't like the president. He has a gentle manner and wears a sullen scowl constantly, except when it is suddenly broken by his goofy smile, his small and even white teeth. His eyes glow - I've never met anyone who I could say that about before, but his skin is deep black, and against it they light up at night and reflect even the slightest illumination, from flashlights, or candles, or even the green moon.

When the weather was cold, I would come over and lie down on the dirty, threadbare rug inside the darkened house next to Yusef, and we would listen to the buzzing static of Mauritanian stations, the little blue glow from the radio's dial our only light.

Other times we would all be in the wind whipped khayme (tent) by candlelight. I remember once watching him pray - everyone does it differently, and since its not neccessarily rude to watch, I always do - I feel it says something interesting about their personality which is not otherwise revealed. Yusef prays precisely, like he wants to get everything right. He is lithe like a dancer, he bounces on the balls of his feet, his face is expressionless, his bows are swift. I am more to him than just and American, or a good-investment, or a novelty, and for that I am grateful.

My days go by so quickly, even though the heat has returned. It's hard to imagine where the time goes. I need to concentrate to remember the day (or the date). I've long since ceased to dream in English. I can go weeks without speaking a word of it.

In the mornings it is bright and cool, and I walk the half kilometer to the market to buy bread (soft, chewy loaves about a foot long and 2 inches thick) and mint for my tea, just picked and wrapped in cylinders of wet, brown paper, and dry little biscuits to serve to guests (there are always guests) and sometimes sugar and sometimes rice. I almost never buy anything else anymore. I no longer cook, which is just as well. All the pleasure I used to get from making food has been stunted by the lack of almost all ingredients.

On the bread I put stawberry jelly (awful, synthetic, unnaturally red and cheaply unnutritious jelly) which I've brought from the capital for this express purpose along with the equally chemical-tasting (and iconically West African ) Nescafe instant coffee which I drink with powdered milk and sugar and some cinammon, or maybe a little Nesquik chocolate powder. I used to listen to the BBC world service over breakfast, but Abdelai borrowed my radio a month ago and hasn't returned it yet, so now I just read or study or stare at the walls.

Lately, I've been going to the garden twice - once in the morning to putter around the nursery and worry my trees, and once in the evening to water and help Taleb carry buckets to the cows when they come back to drink.

Cows are fascinating creatures by the way - simultaneously so graceful and awkward with their slow lumbering on dainty feet, their giant, mysterious eyes, glassy and fringed, their vulgar mooing.

*******

Now the sky is blinding white. For 3 days straight the wind has blown nonstop, kicking the dust up into the atmostphere. Its nothing but a breathless haze that glows all day and turns eerie at twilight.

The thermometer climbs. At 2 'o' clock it reads 104 degrees in the shade of my house, and outside at least 20 degrees hotter, but I don't know for sure - the meter stops in sullen protest at 120. With a little breeze, a garwah, it is completely bearable, without it, life is considerably less pleasant, but what can you do?

My yard is a sterile wasteland of sand and rock shards and bits of garbage. I tried digging a few holes to prepare the ground for trees, but was admonished. I had dug them too close to the house. Everyone said, 'Dig them out there, near the wall'. We build giant stone walls to enclose vast tracts of nothingness. The wall is about 20 meters away. 'You can't put them here. This is where we live'. I forgot that we want the tree and its shade as far away as possible, while still being ours.

I tell them that in America we often like to keep trees close, and live under their shade and grace, but that gets about as much respect as when I tell them we build our houses from wood.

*******

What else? 2 more things.....

This is what I don't like about Mauritania:

The relentless, entirely accepted prevalence of uninformed, incurious and intolerant religious proselytism - a grave offense, a grave offense. Woe to all those, of all faiths who practice it.


This is what I love about Mauritania:

Seeing people, surrounded by the tangibly thick, chaotic, dirt-noise of Cinquieme market - cars and carts and animals, and filthy sandstreets, and random trash - harken to the evening prayer call as the sun sets and wash their feet and limbs, right there in the indifferent street, and, bowing, disappear for a moment, into a pocket of solitude, into the untouchable solemnity of prayer.

I don't know how to balance this equation. But for now, I just let it be, and sleep under the stars.

love letters

Hello dear readers.

Just letting know that even though I have just arrived in the city two days ago I am leaving again now for fear that I will be trapped here for several more days if I dont. Ive been so busy. Sorry to those whos emails I was not able to answer. Ill be out again in a few weeks. Until then.... keep writing and stay strong. It wont be long now......

The pendulum

Sometimes I am filled with the desire to be here, and sometimes it leaves, like a guest.

Sometimes it feels like I'm living a double-speed, doubly thick version of my previous life, becoming, by the moment, something both greater and better, and sometimes it feels as if I've merely transplanted myself like a dead vegetable into new soil.

I feel lonely and melancholy.

I feel odd and silly, like a naive wanderer.

The thing is though, this changes everyday in a revolving, exhausting fashion which is impossible to predict. Everytime I come to the point where my life here seems useless or pretentious and unwanted, something will happen (who knows what) and I'll fall back into the patterned fog of Mauritanian life and stay.

It's almost never because I come to some sort of epiphany about my 'importance' or a rush of feeling about 'making a difference' or some other such (sorry) nonsense. Most recently my mind changed because I started my tree nursery, and I understood every word Brahim said, and because the bread ladies smiled at me.

The difficulties themselves are ungovernable - always shifting, growing stonger here, letting up there, so that I never know when or where to look for them. By the way, I hope no one reading is (still) under any illusions that the 'hard part' of (Peace Corps) existence in the 3rd world is the lack of electricity, or running water, or plumbing (or toilet paper), or consumer goods, or easy transportation, or good food, or for that matter, the constancy of wind/heat/dirt/sand/flies. Good god. Most of those things I almost never think about, not since the first few 'trial by fire' weeks in Mauritania. Infinitely more difficult than not having electric light is the experience of living in a place where you can never fully understand anyone (nor be fully expressed) trying to do work which almost no one wants or cares about (and the value of which you are hardly sure of) in a place where everyone thinks you're both incredibly wealthy and that you're going to hell just for not praying (not to mention the treasure trove of other sins they could condemn you for, if only they knew) and where you exist merely in the thin space between everyone's graciousness and disaster.

It's hard to believe I've been here for eight months. It's hard to believe how brown my arms have become ......

But honestly though, how bad could it be? It's such an unnamed, though pervasive arrogance which causes us to be called 'volunteers' and to advertise 'the experience' with words like 'hardship' and 'sacrifice', as if we, as westerners were by our very nature entitled to be free of those things, and that by giving up that right we are allowed to be self-congratulating and the occasional objects of some sort of misguided admiration. What's a couple of years compared to a life-time lived in 5 square kilometers?

Isn't part of what makes this bearable for us (though we are all loathe to admit it) the knowledge that we will be leaving? That we will never, ever be stuck here, in the way that so many of them are stuck here? (Not to mention the thoughts of future resume lines, the influential connections, the book jacket bio filler) Plus, even if we lived their lives exactly for 2 years, every moment of lusterless boredom shared, every denied want, every disappointment, every symptom of poverty identical, it still wouldn't make us one of them. And even I don't do that, and (no offense) my situation is about as no-frills Peace Corps as it gets, so if I don't do it, probably no one does.

Having said that, I'll say this: if part of what makes this time bearable is the knowledge that it will end, then part of what makes if difficult is knowing what you're missing.

That's not to say, of course, that my 'stress' is significantly added to by thinking that I could, right now be watching the Food Network in my underwear (though I'd be the world's biggest liar if I said that telephone calls, the internet and bacon with toast aren't appealing). But there's no question I'd still trade all that dead and glossy American stuffing for any number of things here which I feel have quantitatively more life-mass - my friend, Cheikh for one, with his too-big smile, his heart-breaking politeness and serious eyes.

It's not anything very specific that I might miss, I guess if I had to put it briefly I would say that, as trite as it sounds, in America one feels like things are generally possible, and in the RIM one generally feels like they aren't.

I miss feeling like I'm part of the world, though if I'm being honest I'm probably much more so now, whatever that means, than I ever was in the US, being depressed, watching the West Wing.....

But one doesn't miss what one never had. For the most part, the people in my village have little idea of( and less curiousity about) what goes on outside of EQ, and therefore no good reason to temper their general contentment (because they are, in fact, content. And why not? Even with the insidious memory of previous conveniences and liberties, I'm still much happier here, and have been so for longer, than I ever was at almost any point during my life before now). I don't pity them, because there's nothing to pity. Pity is a reverse arrogance, anyway. Pity is a smug frown. No matter what your intentions, if you feel sorry for someone who laughs more than you, and who has never thought about 'ending it', because you live in college educated air conditioning, and they're without plumbing, then you're a fool. And fools never did anyone any good. Of course ignorance is bliss, but so be it - bliss is bliss.

(Is there hunger and death and stilted longing that I don't see, even living as close as I do? Surely....but what do you want from me?)

In the end, (here's the thesis coming), maybe everything comes out just about even. I don't think our lives, (meaning 'us', meaning humans in general) are lived on some sort of sliding scale between 1 and 10 where ten wins, but maybe instead on something closer to a series of parallel paths in which everyone lives at basically the same standard deviations of fulfillment, regardless of, I don't know, everything. It's crossing over from one to the other that's a pickle.

So god help those who transition.

Camera Obscura # 2

Jiddou trying out a pose with attitude.

A lackluster photo of St Louis's crumbling elegance.

Rachel doing a nerdy pose near the beach in St Louis, and my dearly departed Lee and Christine. We miss you!!

Bobbo covers his eyes.

Take me out

I love Dakar. Did you expect any less?

If you don't know what WAIST is, you're probably not in Peace Corps. And if you don't win it, you're from somewhere besides Mauritania (Yay! We won! It must be all the sand and ruthless heat that make of our intrepid softballers unstoppable machines).

Anyway, WAIST stands for West African Invitational Softball Tournament, and the rest is whatever you make of it. Even after months in the vacuum of desert, many drunk Americans, hot-dogs and baseball aren't quite what I would refer to as the highlights of Dakar. Not to mention the queasily compoundish and 'Passage to India' -like nature of the 'American Club' where we played. Still there was beer, there was dancing and there was English, so there was fun to be had.

Anyway, Senegal is like Mauritania cubed. So you have to bring it.

Dakar is notoriously crime-ridden and teeming with pick-pocketers, muggers and -who knows.. vampires?- a fact which I can't seriously doubt, but which I found nothing to support. I feel like the people who allow themselves to be closed off because of this reputation are weak and flawed (excepting women - women probably have a legitimate right to feel scared all the time in Africa). Am I naive? Insufferably. Am I preachy? Sickeningly. Are there untold volumes of things I don't understand about Africa? Unquestionably. But listen to this....

In most interactions with African's, it is necessary to immediately establish that you are not a western imperialist, a tourist, or someone who has no interest in understanding them. And ironically, the best way to do this is to also immediately establish a sort of dominance. Because of course, as in any culture in which you are an Alien, your ignorance and consequent fear make you subject and suspicious, though your manners may be those of disinterested aloofness, or disdain, or of practiced (though maybe unconcious) superiority. So you need to make them see you as a person, and then you need to see them as one too.

You need to be impeccably earnest, kind and honest. Your lack of fear, your guilelessness (sp?) will disarm them. If you are guarded, there are plenty of people who will give you something to be guarded about. If you are confrontational, you will lose all confrontations. You have other weapons: smiles help, a lot, your tone of voice is important. You need to be funny, you need to be quick. If you are neither, then god help you, they will eat you alive.

You need to find a way to exist in their physical space. I get right up close and stare into their eyes like a puppy dog and smile big (not like a nutter). My hand always finds its way to their shoulder and squeezes or rests there while my grinning mouth talks about the heat or asks for directions. I scold those whose prices are too high with a wag of my finger, I pout my lips and scrunch up my brows and ask them why they are so mean to me. And then when they get too serious or start shouting, I poke them in the chin, and ask why they aren't smiling, or put my arm around their waist and my hand on their stomach. In America this would be highly unusual, inappropriate and antagonizing, but here it just works. I do not know why.

Again, speaking through the language of gestures I say, 'My brother, I love you. Now, these oranges are shit, please lower your price'. But no matter how harmless, or careless, or playful you seem to be, the little intelligent flame in the back of your brain must never go out. You can not be stupid, or you will deserve what comes to you. This is Africa, after all, the color of your skin is unfortunately always talking, and you do not get to choose who listens in. So while my mouth is chatting, the hand on their tummy always whispers 'If you repay my kindness with deception, I will destroy you'.

I met a nice young man working at a pizza shop who I think will be the next something-or- other important of Senegal. He was brilliant, and wistful, and talked with me about Michael Owens, and how American's don't care about soccer.

I met a security guard and explained to him the rules of baseball, halfway through realizing both that I did not know said rules and that he actually did, though had proclaimed not to out of politeness. Then I gave him some candy and he tried on my sunglasses.

I met so many cab drivers I can't count them. It sometimes feels too easy - I'll greet them in Wolof a little (all I know), then ask them how they are, ask them if they've had lunch, if they're tired, if they like dogs, if they're married, why they drive so fast, or whatever comes to mind. It's not quite a science, but it's definitely an art.

Unfortunately, a thorn (a nail? a hypodermic needle? a chicken bone?) on the ground (and later in my foot) put me out of commission for a few days, so instead of wandering Dakar I mostly just limped around like a scary, homeless ghost between my bed and the club.

I did get to see a few things though...

Traffic, traffic. The big commuter busses, the color-splashed cartier transports, crammed full with people, weaving through lanes.

A cool scrap metal horse sculpture, rearing its head.

Fruit. Oh my god, there is nothing more beautiful than an overflowing fruit stand, glowing like lit-up jewels at night on the side of the road.

I saw the stifling grip of religion (in this case, Islam) fall away a little like a dark veil, and for some of the rhythmic variety of natural human lives begin to return.

I saw a really big ram.

I ate absolutely perfect pastries for breakfast, each as elegantly fashioned and unique as snowflakes.

Horse carts, moving through traffic along side sleek mopeds and shiny new nissans.

I saw what appears to be the disturbingly insular nature of the American ex-pat community.

I saw an uncountable number of unfathomably beautiful people, in clothes the colors of everything, with intelligent eyes, laughing, or sad, or busy, or heedless, or loving, walking through their lives -those made from the constant, palpable richness of an only partially tamed wilderness.

Road Notes # 2

A few thoughts while traveling to Tijikja...

1 This time out of my village I caught a ride with one of the big, Italian-donated green supply trucks that come here occasionally bearing all sorts of necessary, and unnecessary junk.

2 The truck had a crew of 4 (very dirty) men who sat off to the side as the villagers unloaded the truck and flared their egos.

3 When I approached them to ask for a ride they were on a small mat, eating a lunch/dinner of white rice, which had been cooked on a little gas burner in the cab of the truck.

4 I bet it was the first time they were ever asked by some random whitey, living in the middle of nowhere and speaking their language, if he could catch a ride on top of their motored leviathan.

5 Cheikh, the driver, wouldn't let me ride on top because he said I would fall. So I rode in the cab. (By the way, I totally would not have fallen).

6 Hours later (around ten pm) after eating cous cous with a strange family, served by a Buddha-like woman who hid her face, we left.

7 Ironically big trucks get stuck in the sand much more frequently than little ones (sand is basically like snow) and so on about twenty separate occasions we stopped and put down giant metal plates on the ground for traction.

8. They expressed surprise when I proved willing and able to give unsolicited help getting unstuck, much the same way everyone else expresses surprise whenever I do almost anything at all.

9. The crew of men (none over 30) were each like something perfectly sketched by a short storyist's pen. Cheikh, slightly pudgy yet solid with a highish, nasal voice, a little imperious, a chain smoker. Ali, side-kick-esque, thin, and with one lame leg causing him to limp heavily, sober-voiced and quiet, the rice-cooker, the tea-maker. And the two Mohameds, both young, both sporting spectacularly oil-stained clothes, one short with thick, aggressive features, a happy persona and loud, bad (yet fluid) French, the other tall and thin and broad-shouldered, with an elegant, finely drawn face, austere eyebrows; the countenance of a wise child.

10 From sucking on a rubber hose earlier to induce gasoline to travel from a spare barrel to the fuel tank, tall Mohamed had become ill, and afterward merely lay in the truck bed while we dug out the tires. More importantly I knew what was happening because I know the verb 'to vomit' (which is Yigdhev).

11 We finally reached the gudrone about six hours later (4 am) and collapsed on dirty mats under a hangar on the side of the road, me sharing the blankets of this strange collection of men I didn't know a few hours ago. Sometimes Mauritania is wild.

12 Also, not for nothing, but could you imagine for a second that I would ever be allowed to find myself in a similar situation with the approximate counterparts of these people (whoever those might be) in America? No sir. Being foreign in the third world is like having a backstage pass to all sorts of crazy perks. Although I guess perks is relative.

13 The next morning I woke up to the sound of names being called. One of the inscrutable, and, I happen to think, endearing things that Mauritanians do is to call the name of the person they want over and over and over again, with out ceasing, and without the change of inflection or exasperated shouting that would certainly seem reasonable after a while. They just evenly call over and over, as if they're certain you will answer and haven't a thing to do in the meantime.

14 Spread on the pavement we breakfasted on peanuts and camel biscuits. Ali made tea on the gas burner and served it from a dirty, blue-plastic oil jug, turned on its side, with holes cut out for two kesses (shot glasses) and a baraad (the dainty little tea pot).

15 One of the new companions I had acquired overnight (we had slept in a place with several more of their truck-driving companions, waiting for a wheel to their hobbled vehicle) was named Yahya and had such exaggerated African features (prodigious lips; wide, flat nose; almond shaped eyes ) that it was hard to believe he was real. He chatted with me about his wish to learn karate while Cheikh scrubbed his feet on the pavement with a sliver of soap and a stone.

16 The late morning found me waiting in the searing heat for a car, in one of the many places in Mauritania where no one should ever have settled down. (But they did).

17 At the gendarme stop, where Yahye and his newly be-wheeled comanions bade me their farewell, I finally snagged a car for the second leg of my journey. The driver was nice, conversational but just enough for politeness, his speech intelligible, the window was down (it was just the two of us) the fare was free, and he gave me an orange from the pile on the floor. That's what's known as a holiday.

Je les ne veux pas

Hello Valentines

This post is to void all the previous posts I have put up asking for lovely American mass produced gifts to be sent in the mail. I have received an embarrassment of riches from many friendly people and no longer need anything. Except perhaps inner clarity and infinite wisdom, but those don't ship well.

If you still want to send things, please send the following:

Ziploc bags.

Pens I will continue to receive with joy, but I'm changing my preference from the uncapped pilot G2, which are my favorites, to the capped, and therefore sand-resistant uniball something or others. Just something with liquid ink.


Everything else I can either find on occasion in the capital, or is no longer important to me. As one might imagine, my living requirements are ridiculously reduced.

Plus, it's not like any of you are Rockefellers, to be perfectly honest....

So that's all. Plus good wishes to you all, so far away.

-Colton


PS Happy Birthday Mom. I love you.

How to avoid the subjunctive

Now is the time of Jujubees and millet. Now is the time of cold, of windy skies and hazes.

The greenery is being picked clean, the remaining shoots of desert peanuts, the brush-like weeds, the green skin of the poisonous turga. So it follows that the milk has begun to dry up as well; we don't drink it anymore, in big, plentiful gulps from metal bowls. Sometimes we have it with our nightly cous-cous, (poured and mixed with the hand, into a soupy glob that you slurp from your palm - it is incredibly good) And sometimes not.

As the green goes further and further away, the Tagant comes to resemble ever more the surface of a distant planet. No kidding - it's just plains and plains of rocks and reddish sand and mountainous, impassive cliffs. The inhabitants are, at times, just as alien to me as the scenery.

And then, many times, and without warning, they simply aren't.

In fact, it's surprisingly easy to forget that all my interactions with people, and therefore all the relationships and events that make up my days, are in another language, as if they happen in a place a few inches in front of my nose, instead of behind it. That fact is simultaneously unremarkable and continously astonishing. I remember how, months ago, landing in Casablanca, -a stopover on the way here- I felt mildly terrified at the loss of my language. It was my first time out of the country (Oh! dear, sweet bumpkin) and suddenly, something that I had always taken for granted, something that I had always been blessed to have in easy abundance (English) was no longer available. Just like that.

Now, I have to try hard to hear the constant jibbering around me as exotic, to hear it like I used to, as an unintelligable collection of foreign syllables.

Which is not to say that I'm no longer confused. I'm always at least somewhat out of the loop, and more often than not, I'm left staring off into space, with a wrinkled brow, thinking about hamburgers...

Nevertheless, the clueless westerner does have at his disposal a few tools. One that has served me especially well is the classic, non-commital utterance 'Mmmm', which straddles the boundary between 'yes' and 'no', and accordingly takes on whatever meaning the questioner secretly wants to hear. It's outrageously successful, and works like this:

Q- Cheikh-Akhmedou (that's me), do you want me to bring you some cous-cous?

Me: Mmmmm....

Q- Okay, I'll be right back.

(Actually, this example is misleading, because no one ever offers to bring me anything)


Another option is of course ignoring the question altogether, or changing the subject with some left-field non-sequitor like:

'Your shirt is dirty'

or

'My head hurts'

or

'Get that chicken out of my house!'


One which sometimes works better than others is the stock answer I'm not a muslim. Surprisingly, it applies to more situations than one might hope, though not always.

'But I'm not a muslim!' I'll answer a bit frantically to some perceived question.

'Ok-aay,' they'll say, 'but I was just telling you that you have rice on your nose'


The point is, one gets by. One rediscovers day after day what lives at the place where words end, and how to push forward through it like a new neighborhood. It helps to be clever, honestly. It helps to be fearless, or at least to tell yourself that you are. It helps to recognize value in the language of gestures - an icy stare, or a well-timed poke in the ribs, or an impromptu bout of arm wrestling can speak volumes. I like to think that good will can be exchanged through the skin of the fingertips. What mine says is something like 'I can't understand you because we are worlds of words apart. But lets hold hands'.

Some things though, need no translation. The other day I was helping my friends Bobo and Taleb make bricks from sand and cement in a square near the market. We had stopped for tea and biscuits when across the way we saw a little wandering donkey poking his oversized head and mangy ears through the entrance of their family's boutique. Donkeys almost always behave so much like nervously maladjusted people that its impossible not to personify them. This one seemed to be running low on sugar for tea, and had popped out to re-up. None of us mentioned it and only smiled, though it was nice to be sure that for once we were all on the same page.

The body electric

Request:

Can someone send me a battery (or four) for my retro rangefinder camera Yashica Electro 35 GSN. You can get them at Radio Shack or maybe Wallgreens for about 4 bucks. Look for the 4LR44 1.5 V or the 6V (PX)28A. They weigh about nothing, and they're cheap. Don't you want me to be happy?